I need a moment.

Warning- this is not a happy blog. I need to vent, and then I will let it go and move on with my life.

I am just amazed at people sometimes... While it is always nice to be amazed in a GOOD way (and it definitely does happen), what I'm referring to today is in a not-so-good way. I am amazed at some people's ability to be incredibly selfish and uncaring, especially to those they are SUPPOSED to care about all in an effort of self-fulfillment.

Life really can be unfair sometimes... those that are completely undeserving get shit on pretty bad. And unfortunately, that's just the way it is. I will say, I KNOW this is for the better. I  know that I would never do the things to others that some people throughout my life have done to me... so when they do these things, that is a sure sign that I need to get away from them. A blessing in disguise. Although it hurts, it's some divine intervention's way of saying, "Hey- here is your 'friend's' true colors. Do you really want them in your life at all?" And the answer is, simply, "no." I have plenty of awesome, caring people in my life that I can take a couple of losses on the ones that aren't deserving. I don't need that negative karma around me. And I can certainly do without the drama too, thank you.

The fact of the matter is, even though I realize I am better off without these types, it still really stings. It hurts to know there are people out there who can so easily disregard your feelings and your friendship when you think they actually care. I will never understand these types. The thought of knowingly hurting those close to me is unfathomable... the guilt would haunt me. I honor good friends and decent hearts enough not to go there.

So with that... I am done venting. I am purging the negative people and events to move onto bigger and better things. They can fester in their bad karma as far as I'm concerned.

Whew... ok. That is better. Anger aside- now I will continue to move forward.